Good Riddance

Dear You,

Despite all the pain you caused me, I'm still very thankful that sometime in my life I was able to know you. I could have cursed you, wish you all the bad things in life but then I realized, it's not worth it. Thanks to Bo Sanchez's Heart Detox and I was able to apply The Gap. Hurtful words cannot be taken back once said and I don't want to suffer the burden of resentment for the rest of my life. Now I'm choosing to do good and just be thankful that we were having will not go on any further. It wasn't a healthy relationship after all. Neither of us is proud of our identities and we can't even express it in public. We've been talking for hours yet I can't even reveal to my roommate who I'm talking to. The fear of revelation is always there and I'm not comfortable with it anymore.As far as I can remember, that is not the kind of relationship that I ever wanted. I've been wanting something that is real and genuine and pure. Something that I can be proud to everybody because ever since I've always loved the teasing that I get from my friends. I've been praying for someone who is mature and responsible. Someone who has a clear goal in life. Someone who would inspire me to serve the Lord more. Maybe I was blinded by your acts of interest because it's been a long time since a man exclusively calls me. However, later did I know that it wasn't exclusive after all. You clearly have mastered your scheduling skills and somehow I found out that I'm not your priority. You will only call me because you are bored and got no one to talk to or perhaps your OTHER talkmate is already sleeping or not available. Unfortunately, I'm just your fallback girl and I don't want you to treat me that way anymore. Many times I tried to block you in my contact list but I just cant. Then came a time that you just stopped calling. To be honest, I wasn't ready for it. There's confusion, anger, worry all combined together. I'm hurt and I want vengeance. But then again, isn't it the very thing that I wished for? This is it, I could finally get rid of your presence. My absence in your life won't matter anymore and I know that you will just be fine. You will eventually get to know some other fallback girls but for me it's over. It isn't going to be that easy for sure but as the days pass by, I'm getting used to it and eventually I could finally say GOOD RIDDANCE! You will be fine, -niceurdaneta-

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Confrontations and The Lessons It Give

Dear You,

 It's been a long time since I havent posted something in this blog, years perhaps but then again I'm too afraid to say to it upfront thus the reason I'm posting it here instead. Let's just say I've known you for quite some time, long enough that one time I used to like you even though I know it can't be possbile anymore. I've imagined scenarios of possible encounters wherein both of us together, happy, free and simply living the life. It's quite insane but I didn't care. I thought, I have had the harsh truth long time ago and could eventually move on but after that time the hope was still there because I thought you were not happy in your situation and you did not want it and you were just a victim of invevitable circumstance and a whole lot more. You've shared to me quite a number of rants, not so nice life you're having and that you're doomed and just have to live with it. At first I felt sorry for you and wished that I could something to at least make you realize that life is nice. That's why I'm keeping in touch. However, I think I've known enough. 

I've come to realize that the confrontation I did to you years ago brought me far more lessons than accepting the truth that we can only be friends and no more than that. I thought I would want someone like you, a pleaser, a person who doesn't know how to get angry, a person who'd do everything to make me happy and at peace. Eventually it turned out that you can't decide on your own and have had just been living a life according to what other people want you to be. You pretend most of the time, pretend that everything is okay and that you would be okay yet deep inside it's the other way around. You will not fight for it because you don't want any trouble. I don't think I would want someone like that. I'd rather want to be with someone who would tell me the truth and nicely criticize my judgments. Someone who has his own ideas, someone who got the nerves to correct me when Im going out of my way. 

But who am I to judge anyway. It's your life after all. I'm just thankful that among all people in your life, you chose to share your sentiments with me. I know that there are times wherein you have no one to share it with. I hope I gave you some amount of relief whenever you need one. It's hard to totally cut you out because I dont know if you still have someone to hang on. But I guess you would be taken care of because this time it's already different. There would come a time wherein I can no longer be available to listen to your sentiments but Im just hoping that before that time comes, you are already in your happy self. There is nothing else I would wish for you to have but pure and genuine bliss. As of this writing I'm still here but I dont know until when. 

 Your sentimental sponge, 

Me 

 -niceurdaneta-

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The Evolution of Pain in Me

I should have applied the phrase "the lesser you know, the better". Now Im hurt, that's for sure. But after a few minutes of pondering, I came to realize that keeping myself in pain won't do me any good. Maybe a few hours ago I was just shocked and dismayed a little bit of what I discovered. Basically because it was quite a human instinct to base our own definition of RIGHT to other people. We tend to forget that we are unique individuals having our own capacity to think and decide.

You chose to be in that path and I hope youre happy with it. This pain Im feeling should be ignored and shook off immediately. Afterall, everything was cleared a long time ago. That painful time when everything was revealed yet the choice was still not in my favor. 

Maybe we are meant to be this way. I should be thankful that our communication is still open and I know that youre just a messenger away, just like the old times.

Im still your friend and will forever be. :)

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Struggling With Words

Dear You,

Yes, you. This letter is definitely for you. Right now I'm struggling with words, because to be honest, I really don't know what to say. It's been hours of clicking F5 and hoping that the small red Facebook notification would not be another game invites that I used to receive. I'm hoping that this time around it would be something worth opening. However, I even can't define what's worth opening nor knowing where will this post lead to. This is just another rare moment of wanting to shout out a lot of things but can't find the right words for it. This post is getting pointless. So I'd better end it up. 

Struggling with words, 
Me

-niceurdaneta-

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I Found The Secret

Dear Nice,

There is more than enough for everything, no limits, no boundaries. Ask, answer, receive. All you need to do is to apply the law of attraction.Attract the things that you want. If you want a new car then visualize yourself driving your new car. If you want that high paying nursing job, then visualize yourself having one. Everything will be given as long as you're asking for it.

Your happiness would always depend on you and not on somebody else. Define your own happiness, claim it, live for it and everything will just fall into place. It would feel good if you want to feel good.

That's the secret.

Living happily,
Me -niceurdaneta-

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Missing You So Badly

Dear You,

It's been quite a while since I last saw you in your scrub suit. I so miss the times seeing you so busy walking back and forth in the Emergency Room taking care of sick people. I so miss the times seeing you accompanying your ever strict medical director doing her rounds and carrying out all her orders with confidence.

I so miss the times seeing you start that IV line so fast and administer IV medicines. I so miss the times seeing you preparing all the medicines for your patients. I so miss the times seeing you writing legibly in the patients' chart. I so miss the times seeing you endorsing every end of the shift. I so miss the times seeing you enjoying your duty with your colleagues along with the unending story telling of anything under the sun. I so miss the times seeing you exhausted after the day's work yet very fulfilled. 

When would be the time I would be seeing that angel in the sickroom again? I hope it would be very soon. :( 

Missing you so badly,

ME

-niceurdaneta-

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Interestingly Scary

Dear You,

I find you interesting but there is something in your personality that scares me and I don't know why. Maybe I'm just too overwhelmed that someone like you exists.Or maybe it's just my first time to know someone from your group.

Things are happening so fast and I know a lot more of it are coming.

I'm honestly scared at the same time excited.

Stay kindhearted.

Overwhelmed/Scared,
ME -niceurdaneta-

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For Your Grieving Heart

Dear You,

God will definitely show you the way to smiling again. I know this experience will change you forever. Just remember all the good times you shared with your father and all the love he gave you throughout the years. He is not gone. He will live in your heart forever.

Your strength inspires me. I know the loss of your father is not easy to deal with. But the way your are handling it and helping your family is truly amazing.Your father would be so proud of the person you have become.

I will always be here for you. *hugs*

Your friend,
Me
-niceurdaneta-

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A Letter For My Friend

Dear You,

Hi, hello... how are you? How's life? These are the usual phrases that you would most likely say to a friend whom you haven't seen for so long and obviously I'm saying those phrases to you now. I can't barely remember when was the last time we saw each other in person, and I also can't remember a time that I was able to greet you up front. It would always be either through our cellphones or through the social networking sites... 

You're one of those friends that I treasure the most... One of the best that I have so far. As long as my health allows me, I would always be waiting for the clock to strike 12AM every 12th of September to greet you... We may have different time zones in the near future but I'll see to it that I could greet on time. 

This is not going to be a very long letter because all I want to say to you is HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you're well and everything's going fine in your life now. I wish you genuine happiness always... stay kind, God fearing and down to earth... again Happy Birthday to you!

Your friend,
Me
-niceurdaneta-

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Good Bye Not Yet

Dear You,


I really don't know how to start this letter. I'll just paste a song lyrics instead. 


you say it would be better 
if we stopped seeing each other 
if you had only met me first 
when you were free 
'cause now you've got commitment 
i should not expect things from you 
that you can't give to me 
oh, but baby, can't you see 


i can't say goodbye to you 
no matter how i tried 
you're such a part of me 
without you, i would die 
deep, in the heart of me 
i know that you and i 
were meant to be be together 
i can't tell you goodbye 


neither of us planned 
that we would fall in love this way 
but since we did 
why should we be apart 
sometimes, some things happen 
that can never be explained 
now, it's too late for me 
i've already given you my heart 


i can't say goodbye to you 
no matter how i tried 
you're such a part of me 
without you, i would die 
deep, in the heart of me 
i know that you and i 
were meant to be be together 
i can't tell you goodbye 


who knows why we choose 
when we choose the ones we love 
who knows why we do the things 
we do when we're in love 
i know that you're a decent man 
and you try to do what's best 
but how can i forget 
all the feelings we have shared 
i can't say goodbye to you 
no matter how i tried 
you're such a part of me 
without you, i would die 
deep, in the heart of me 
i know that you and i 
were meant to be be together 
i can't tell you goodbye (you and i were meant to be, forever) 
i can't tell you goodbye........

Title: I Cant Say Goodbye To You
Artist: Helen Reddy 
Source: lyricsdepot.com 


Will Be Missing You, 
Me 

-niceurdaneta-

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Killing The Hope Off

Dear You

I just want to get straight to the point. Up to this time I'm still hoping that someday there could be us. I don't know, maybe among the very few people whom I believe I felt that love exists, you are the only one who remained not committed in a bond sealed by law and the Creator as of this time. However, I know that in a year and a few months you will be. Until that time comes, this hope will remain as it is. Though as the time comes near, I'd be killing it off slowly.

On the other hand, I'm also thinking that it would just give me a lot of pain if I'd do it slowly. Why not kill it as early as today? But how? Up to this time we are still updating ourselves (though in a different way) but you still exists in my system. You even stole the only moment I can call mine in this world, my very birthday. Every time it arrives, it would always remind me how you made it very special among my other birthdays. I hope someday that that very special moment would be covered with a more special one. 

You keep on presenting me great things in the world and telling that this life got amazing ways to live with. You even influenced me to develop interest in the world you're living even though it is way way far from what I'm educated to do. Every now and then you're sharing to me what you recently discovered having that confidence that I would be also liking it. Yes, whatever it is, I would be liking it not because it's likable but because you like it in the first place. I would like whatever you like. I would try to learn whatever you learned. I would be very willing to transform myself into someone whom you can relate with. 

Maybe it is my way of loving someone. I'm willing to sacrifice my own identity for the comfort of my other half. But then it is not healthy, it is definitely not the proper way of strengthening the foundation of the relationship because it is very one sided. Who knows the proper way anyway? After all, the bottom line of this thing is to live harmoniously with each other. 

My ID keeps on saying to me to grab what I want, demand the what I believe to make me happy but my EGO is telling me to stop. It is unrealistic and it is not possible to have it this time. This could drive me crazy you know?

I know it is not going to be easy, but I need to come up with a decision now. A firm decision that would mean no turning back. It is the time in my life that would be giving myself the credit of making my own happiness. It may sound selfish but it is my way of getting myself again, whom I've lost for quite some time already. 

I should have a time frame on my own and i'll make it sure that you won't be having a hard time dealing with it. Up to the last minute I'm still thinking of you reacting to it. But it doesn't matter, I know you could carry on. You've lived a life in your own way and losing me is just losing a very small part of your grand life.

I'm hoping for the best to come. I hope that someday, we would be able to see each other again with our own and happy lives. We'll stay friends that's for sure. I would always be living on what you've said, "we are friends,since birth 'til death". I guess that would conclude everything, we will be friends, and it will stay that way.

However, there would be changes, we'll stay as friends but this time without the communication nor the updating-each-other concept.

Sooner or later, you will just notice that the communication has been cut totally. Don't worry, this blog will always be present and will forever be here. If you want to know where I am and what I'm up to? Just check this blog every now and then and you'll be answered. My personal emails would always be there as well but sad to say that email you made for me for our business and safe-to-communicate-by-using-this-email transactions, will soon vanish. I want you to know that you can always open it 'coz I didn't change the password since you gave it to me.

I hope in your day-to-day blog walking you would be able to find this post. I'm not expecting it to be sooner but I'm hoping that sometime in your life you would be able to read it.

Saying goodbye,
ME
-niceurdaneta-

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A Letter For My GrandMother

Dear Nanay,

It's been a while since I last cared an elderly patient in the hospital and it deeply saddened me that I would be taking care of you in such setting. You may not be able to remember how I cared for you the other day or perhaps sooner or later you won't be able to remember even my name, I want you know that I love you very much.

As I watched you sleep the other night, I can't keep myself from smiling as I remember those days that you accompanied me up the stage to place my medal during recognition day. "One proud 'Lola'", the words I often hear from the audience when we go back to our seats from the stage. Then I can also remember those days that I would accompany you doing groceries. You would allow me to get whatever I want. 

Well, those were the days as they say. Now, you can't even walk that much even from your bedroom to your toilet. Sad thing I would be able to see you like that.

Always remember nay that you would always have a nurse-grandchild who will take care of you in whatever way she can do. I won't mind cleaning all your mess and lengthening my patience just for you. I would always be praying for your health and would always be hoping that we could still spend time together.

Loving you,
Granchild, RN
-niceurdaneta-

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Letters For You; Getting To Know What Is This All About

The idea of having this portion in my blog started when I came across the blog of my friend Hencel. She had this one post entitled "A LETTER FOR MY EX-BOYFRIEND" and I find the post very appealing. She showed me a unique way of letting someone know what you truly feel without compromising the identity of the person. I guess having these posts will allow me to send messages to a person whom until now, I don't have the courage to tell my feelings face to face. 

We can't just simply share what we are feeling to our friends or love ones. There are instances that the only person whom we're comfortable to share it with, is our only self. Blogging is my other self and it has been my companion every time I'm online.

I know that all the posts in this portion of my blog can be viewed by anyone. But I'm pretty sure that only those who truly know me could ever understand its contents. And of course, if the reader is sensitive enough, he/she would be to know that he/she is the recipient of the letter.

Basically the posts on this portion of my blog would have the letter type format. It would start with "Dear You" and end with but not limited to LOVE/Sincerely yours/Respectfully Yours/Missing You, ME.

This is my way of reviving the snail mails that we used to have in the past. I find those things more sincere and heartfelt but due to the advancement of technology, these snail mails are rarely sent. Almost everyone have cellphones, laptops and internet connection these days and conveying messaging has never been difficult.

I hope the recipients of my letters would be able to read their mails. Rest assured that I won't be spilling any of their personal and private information in my posts. I'm just not sure how are they going to find it. They might be non-techy people but I guess it's alright because the main purpose of my letters is purely sharing my feelings in such a way that I believed to be the most sincere and heartfelt. I won't really care if that particular person would be able to discover my blog or this portion in particular. What matters to me is that somewhere in the world wide web, I was able to share my feelings.

-niceurdaneta-

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Just Passed My Resignation Letter: Sure Did!

I've been reflecting lately and I was able to find out that something has to be changed with what I'm doing. Something is not right and I guess I should solve it immediately. I haven't seen any growth with myself lately (obviously I'm not referring to my height because I've already accepted the fact that I can't grow any inch higher). Anyway, so much for the "emo" mode and let's get straight to the point. In a span of15 minutes, I was able to formulate my resignation letter. Obviously, I'm resigning from my job for real.

Maybe for others out there who has been dying to get a job, a resignation could be a mad thing to do. However, I want you all to know that it's a case to case basis. If you're not happy anymore with your current job and it seems that getting into the office everyday couldn't give you the satisfaction that you're looking for, then it's a different story. If your principles and beliefs in life is no longer inclined with the company's then something has to be stopped. Continuing with your work could either ruin you or the company per se.

I'm writing this post not just because I want to share what I'm feeling right now but might as well be giving idea to others out there what does a resignation letter might look like. Below is a snapshot of my very own resignation letter, in which I'll be giving later to my boss.

In writing a resignation letter you should take note of the following:

1. Get straight to the point in your resignation letter.

2. State your intention of resigning.

3. Mention your acceptance of another job offer if any.

4. Depending on your company's protocol, state the number of minimum days of notice before the effectiveness of your resignation.

5. If #3 exists, don't forget to mention that the new position you have accepted fits better with your personal preferences or career goals.

6. It should contain thanks to your employer for the opportunity to work for his/her organization.

I hope you've learned something from this post.

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